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Psychology 101

MK Ultra

Psychology is a horrible and depressing profession which is run by crazy and nasty people. There are exceptions and I do know some good people who practice – but it’s not worth it.  Life’s much better doing something else. – Luciana Cruz, Psychologist

I formally studied six years of psychology, specialising in forensics.  I was also among the initial intake for Australia’s first art psychotherapy masters program in Perth.  The latter course included many hours of Freudian and Jungian group therapy.

What I have come to notice is that all modern psychology is mind control.  Those neat little Psychology 101 lectures that we attend at university are a basic introduction to the vast body of psychology knowledge hidden within military application.

The pioneers of modern psychology, psychiatry and psychotherapy engaged in practises that were dubious, abhorrent and/or just plain weird.  Carl Jung’s involvement in occultism, alchemy, and the ancient cult of Mithraism underpinned his writings.  Jung said of his initiation into Mithraism:

One gets a peculiar feeling from being put through such an initiation. The important part that led up to the deification was the snake’s encoiling of me. Salome’s performance was deification. The animal face which I felt mine transformed into was the famous Leontocephalus of the Mithraic Mysteries. It is the figure which is represented with a snake coiled around the man, the snake’s head resting on the man’s head, and the face of the man that of the lion. This statue has only been found in mystery grottoes (the under-churches, the last remnants of the catacombs). The catacombs were not originally places of concealment, but were chosen as symbolical of a descent into the underworld.

Sigmund Freud intentionally hid his finding that dissociated memories of being sexually abused as children caused his patients’ ‘hysteria.’  He wrote:

The event of which the subject has retained an unconscious memory is an unusually early experience of sexual relations with actual excitement of the genitals, resulting from sexual abuse committed by another person; and the period of life at which this fatal event takes place is earliest youth – the years up to the age of eight or 10, before the child has reached sexual maturity. A passive sexual experience before puberty: this then is the specific cause of hysteria…  In some 18 cases of hysteria I have been able to discover this connection in every single case and, where the circumstances allowed, to confirm it by therapeutic success.

Hank P. Albarelli authored, A Terrible Mistake: the Murder of Frank Olson and the CIA‘s Secret Cold War Experiments. The book documents the writer’s 10 years of research into the CIA’s employment of psychiatrists and psychologists to conduct their mind control experiments during the 1950s to 1970s, including the infamous LSD experiments performed on unwitting subjects, and the CIA’s collaboration with the mafia. During a subsequent interview, Albarelli stated:

Virtually anyone that was anybody in terms of psychology or psychiatry in the United States… virtually every doctor in the 50s and 60s was on the CIA payroll.

Ivan Pavlov laid the groundwork for future CIA research in the areas of mind and behaviour control.  Rogers, Watson and Skinner conducted research for CIA’s MK-Ultra project that psychologist John W. Gittinger participated in.  Rogers documented his CIA recruitment, in a 1956 memo to the University of Chicago’s chancellor:

Dr. Harold Wolff of Cornell Medical School is one of the world’s leading authorities in psychosomatic medicine… A week ago he asked me if I would serve with him as a consultant to the Department of Defence on a top-secret matter having to do with mental health. He said, ‘I am asking the five top-ranking men in the country in this field to serve on this task. You are one of the five, and I hope you will serve.’

One of Rogers’ CIA funded research projects examined the Correlation of Psychological and Physiological Variables in Personality and Personality Change.  This study involved attaching electrodes to patients to ascertain their inner state of mind.

John B. Watson is considered the father of behaviourism.  His famous experiment artificially induced a phobia of small animals in a baby.  The baby grew up to suffer permanent mental health issues.  Watson boasted:

Give me the baby… I’ll make it a thief, a gunman or a dope fiend. The possibilities of shaping in any direction are almost endless. Even gross differences in anatomical structure limits are far less than you may think… Men are built, not born.

B. F. Skinner’s research focused on making humans respond to environmental cues.  Two corollaries of his ‘operant conditioning’ are aversion therapy and desensitization.  Aversion therapy uses unpleasant reinforcement, such as electric shock, to reduce an unwanted behaviour.

What the Australian public don’t realise is that MK-Ultra perpetrators set up shop in various Australian locations.  For example, the notorious Dr Harry Bailey conducted deep sleep experiments at Chelmsford Private Hospital in Sydney, with CIA funding.  In 1974, a young woman named Bronwyn Colefax endured a fortnight of Bailey’s antics which included drugging victims into a comatose state, and electrocuting and raping them while they were in this condition.  In response to the electro shock, Bronwyn’s leg shrunk to half its normal size, and she suffered permanent brain damage.  Bronwyn was the first Harry Bailey victim to complain, and her complaint culminated in Bailey’s suicide.

Another example of MK-Ultra’s presence in Australia occurred at Sydney University.  Under a $30,000 joint grant (No. AF-AFOSR-88-63) from the Human Ecology Foundation and the Airforce Office Of Scientific Research, CIA Dr Martin Orne teamed with the Head of Psychology Department, Sydney Uni (A.G. Hammer) and other Australian psychology/hypnosis experts, to collaborate on MK-Ultra sub-project No. 84 during a 2-month lecture period by Orne at Sydney University between June/August 1960.  The research project was titled, ‘Social Control in the psychological experiment: antisocial behaviour & hypnosis.’  The abstract from the research paper reads, ‘Rowland and Young found that hypnotized subjects were willing to carry out such apparently antisocial actions as grasping a dangerous reptile, plunging their hand into concentrated acid, and throwing the acid at an assistant.’

I could devote an entire book to examples of psychiatrists and psychologists abusing vulnerable people.  These men and their experiments formed the cornerstone of the modern therapy on offer to victims of organised pedophilia.  Considering this foundation, it comes as no surprise that the majority of mental health practitioners present to patients as condescending, unskilled, unempathic, unethical, fearful – ‘useless physicians.’

I have dealt with hundreds of Australian counsellors, psychologists and psychiatrists, both as a formal recipient and provider of mental health services, in three states.  I have witnessed firsthand the underhanded workings of the organisations that regulate and control the Australian health industry.  As a result of my writings exposing the corruption of AHPRA and the Australian Psychology Board, I have liaised with other victims of crimes perpetrated by these bodies.

Based upon this wealth of experience, I must conclude that the Australian mental health industry is a putrid mess of dysfunction and corruption.  The majority of Australian mental health practitioners I know are angry control freaks, of average intelligence, unethical, criminally insane, perpetrators of abuse.  After 30 years of active searching, I can count only three psychologists with any degree of the ethics, professionalism and skill needed to support a client in general, never mind a victim of the most heinous crimes.

No psychologist has ever told me that their initial reason for entering the industry was to actually help others.  The majority were attracted due to their own unresolved personal issues.  A portion were lured to the earning potential of a psychologist, or the travel opportunities it affords (I studied with a student whose goal was to work in New York so she could enjoy shopping on Fifth Avenue).  A large number were motivated by their passion for research and a desire for social recognition of their intellectual abilities.  Too many demonstrated unmanaged Aspergers, which may help explain why patients are often treated robotically and without empathy.

An alarming number of practitioners seek sexual access to the vulnerable.  Bond University psychology graduate Hope Michaelson told me that in the 1980s, when she worked as an administrator for the NSW Psychology registration board, the main complaint she received everyday concerned psychologists taking sexual advantage of their clients.

The modern day practitioners who are ethical and do possess the capacity to work with victims like me, will undoubtedly come under surveillance by perpetrators.  This is how organised pedophilia remains a secret.  Those who actively attempt to help victims typically suddenly find themselves professionally and personally threatened.  If the therapist works under the umbrella of an organisation, that organisation tends to stop the therapist’s efforts.  If the therapist runs their own business, that business is usually targeted until the therapist is forced to choose between loyalty to the client and their intellectual and financial baby.

Therapists who choose to support victims of organised pedophilia work blindly with zero support from the Australian health industry.  The failed Wood Royal Commission’s legacy was the denial of the existence of a VIP paedophile network in favour of the gangrenous writings of Elizabeth Loftus.  Consequently, Australian health practitioners receive no training in ritual abuse and mind control techniques, Australian university training is based on the premise that victims fabricate their PTSD flashbacks, and the APS ethical guidelines regarding psychologists working with child abuse victims actually hinder therapists from assisting victims.

What then is an Australian therapist to do with an otherwise sane client who presents with memories of the most heinous child abuse experiences?  Dismiss them as insane?  How does that assist the victims who, when properly treated for organised pedophilia, change and heal?

I’ve witnessed decades of changing therapy fads.  I note that the methods preferred in the late 1980’s and early 1990’s were superior to what is advocated today.  The modern techniques employed by health professionals are ineffective for treating the most serious type of child abuse.

Australian victims have limited options in this mental healthcare wasteland.  They may consult a psychiatrist or psychologist.  Alternatively, they may line up at one of the community based counselling services affiliated with the church denominations currently under Royal Commission investigation for perpetrating and covering up child abuse.

Non-government organisations dedicated solely to child abuse counselling are often poorly staffed – and worse, they are sometimes infiltrated with perpetrators.  For example, during my Royal Commission session, I dismissed one of Australia’s most recognised child abuse advocates as a ‘media slut’ following her demonstrated lack of interest in assisting the Tweed Shire paedophile ring.  Her disinterest starkly contrasted how she hounded and provided her personal mobile number to my sister-in-law who, while working as an assistant coach, witnessed the sexual abuse of elite Australian swimmers.  I have since heard how this individual sabotaged a high profile Australian pedophilia court case.

Psychiatry is government funded via Medicare and therefore more accessible to victims who have been too busy surviving rather than earning high incomes.  Psychiatrists’ tools of trade include drugs, electric shock and the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual for Mental Disorders (DSM).  The DSM is a scientifically invalid collection of opinions.  Basically, a group of men met and reached a consensus regarding what constitutes mental illness.  Patients are typically forced into one or more categories of the DSM.  At Bond University, psychology students were forced to squeeze clients into at least one DSM category.  If we didn’t, the case reports in our clinical folios had to be edited and resubmitted.

Most disturbingly, females who exhibit symptoms of Dissociative Identity Disorder as a result of severe child abuse can often meet the DSM criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder.  These victims are usually labelled for life and dismissed as untreatable.  It was Royal Commissioner Milroy, a professor of psychiatry, who agreed with me that the BPD symptoms disappear as the victim’s child abuse is acknowledged and appropriately addressed in therapy.

Soviet neuroscientist Yuri Kropotov, who discovered the function of the basal ganglia, visited the Tweed Shire in 2015.  During this visit he publicly stated that ‘psychiatry has failed’ and that neurofeedback is the modern means of combating mental health disorders – well, that plus the brain lobotomies that his Russian brain institute regularly perform…

I have not located research material supporting the use of brain-wave manipulation to treat the neurological disturbances created by perpetrators who used neurofeedback techniques while originally perpetrating their abuse.  I have witnessed symbols and references embedded within the computer graphics of biofeedback programs that could easily trigger victims.  This makes me wonder whether those who design and implement such programs should be trusted with victims’ alpha waves.

Modern psychology seems to have abandoned lengthy psychotherapy based treatments in favour of short-term behaviour modification interventions like Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, Acceptance Commitment Therapy, and Mindfulness.  These treatments target the client’s symptoms rather than exploring the root causes of their conditions.  Combating sophisticated abuse techniques administered early in childhood with what amounts to sheer will power, is as ridiculous as challenging a fighter jet with an air pistol.  Mindfulness is particularly abhorrent to victims who were abused within religious cults because its techniques include activities like astral travel and transcendental meditation that were employed to abuse victims in the first place.

During the late 1980’s and 1990’s, a standard therapy session lasted 60 minutes.  The victim of severe child abuse could expect to attend two sessions per week.  At university, I was taught that the APS allowed 1.5 hour sessions for highly traumatised victims, to ensure they don’t leave in a hyper-aroused state.  However, income greedy modern practitioners only offer a single 50 minute therapy session per week.  In accordance with industry guidelines, they deduct 10 minutes per hour for writing case notes and reports – because that time shouldn’t be wasted on treating the victim, right?

Fifty minutes per week is ridiculously insufficient for victims of severe child abuse to process their experiences – to fathom and comprehend what was done to them, integrate their fragmented minds, severe their perpetrators’ attachment violations, and close their wounds such that they cease to be triggered by reminders of their abuse.

Complex trauma resulting from severe child abuse requires years of therapy.  During critical recovery times, multiple weekly sessions need to be interspersed with a residential care facility staffed by experts with specialist training.  Unfortunately, no such thing exists in Australia – because The Wood Royal Commission officially concluded that VIP child sex trafficking rings do not exist in this country.

Experienced psychologists may charge around $250 per session.  Crap psychologists charge less.  Inexperienced or unskilled psychologists are usually desperate for clientele and therefore more willing to be paid $130 per hour to counsel victims of crime.  Psychology receives scarce funding from the Australian government.  Presently, Medicare will cover about eight sessions – which is just enough therapy to trigger a victim to suicide.

Fellow abuse victims, please be warned that you will receive little to no support from Australian mental health workers.  Know that these people are not altruistically motivated to be concerned for you – they are paid to care.  Consequently, when your condition becomes critical, and they are forced to choose between you and their café lifestyle, registration, reputation, research, business, overseas holidays, long weekends, interstate conference with all-inclusive wine tour, private school fees, regular restaurant dining, sexual partner, intellectual pursuits, social recognition, or personal safety – they will not choose you!

If you bond with one of these secular professionals for the purpose of processing your abuse, you run the risk of being prematurely abandoned at a most crucial time.  It is safer if you don’t commence the recovery process at all, rather than die half way through.  And don’t think that the therapist will take responsibility for their part in your downfall.  They will justify their abandonment according to their code of therapeutic engagement and management, and ultimately blame you for their poor choices.  You were, after all, just another borderline personality disordered ‘nutter’ – and they have a clinic full of those to fill the void you leave behind.  All mental health workers reserve their perceived right to hide behind a façade of professionalism.  Arrogant or not, they will in times of stress, fear and ignorance revert to this default setting.

Victims must realise that most therapists are limited in their ability to help you, even if they care to.  They possess varying degrees of knowledge, skills and experience.  If your case does not fall within their reality, they will be at a loss as to what to do.  Few therapists are willing to alter their practise, and research an entirely new area of expertise, just to accommodate your unorthodox treatment needs.  Your case is one of many in their filing cabinet, and their time costs.

Psychiatrists and psychologists are trained to listen with empathy and say little during sessions.  Don’t mistake this silence for intelligence or understanding.  Like the proverb says, even a fool seems wise if he shuts his mouth.

Know that therapists follow a clinical script which they begin learning from day one of their training.  At university, we were made to prepare and memorise such scripts.  My Counselling Psychology lecturer taught our class that empathy can be scripted, learnt – faked until achieved.  No, it cannot; especially not when working with victims abused at the highest level of VIP pedophile networks.  Such victims are selected due to their above average intelligence, particularly their visual spatial processing capacity.  This ability also enables the victim to read micro facial expressions with ease.  Owing to their unique cognitive make up, such victims will immediately see through a therapist’s feigned empathy and dismiss that person as untrustworthy and plain stupid.

Equally crucial is a therapist’s lack of ego.  Therapists with the smallest amount of ego cannot work with VIP child abuse victims.  In fact, they make the worst therapists in general.  Pride and ego will always interfere with the therapist’s objectivity and motivation.  Unfortunately, the mental health industry is full of egotists.

Know that therapists are indoctrinated with the notion that they are superior to the client.  Psychiatrists are the worst at this, since medical schools instill their students with an inflated sense of self importance.  For example, a University of NSW medical student said her class were repeatedly told in lectures, ‘You are the chosen ones.’  How amusing, considering the average IQ of a medical doctor is 120 and the exceptionality they refer to begins at least two standard deviations higher.

High intelligence is essential for working with victims of the severest type of abuse.  A therapist cannot possibly begin to comprehend the cognitive processing of someone with an IQ double theirs.  A therapist must recognise and understand the unique characteristics of high IQ individuals.  They must alter the therapy program, just as a school teacher differentiates the curriculum in order to engage the cognitively gifted student.

Victims of the most sophisticated abuse view the world completely differently to most people, based on their particular brain structure and function.  They would see things differently whether or not they were abused as children.  They see the world in patterns and categories.  They think and process multiple levels of information at once, like an air traffic controller simultaneously tracks three conversations.  They perceive clear connections between seemingly unrelated fragments of information.  They accurately predict human behaviour, based on this unusual ability to analyse and read facial expression.

It takes an intelligent therapist to recognise and work with intelligence, and to meet their special needs.  Otherwise, characteristics of giftedness will be dismissed as PTSD hyper-vigilance, a narcissistic desire to be treated as special, or some other mental condition.

Being heard, believed and understood is crucial to any victim’s recovery.  The therapist would be foolish to reduce reality to what they have seen and heard in their sheltered lives.  Nothing should be dismissed as impossible, just because it sits outside the therapist’s limited personal experience.

Creativity – or divine revelation – is needed to work with the most sophisticated abuse techniques.  An effective therapist must work intuitively and not methodically to some rote learnt textbook list of steps.  There is no guide book anyhow, and every case differs, so the psychologist must invent it as she goes.

The worst type of therapist is the closet perpetrator.  Beware of any counsellor, pastor, minister, psychologist or psychiatrist who advertises that they specialise in mind control or ritual abuse.  I have repeatedly been told that these people are usually re-programmers, not deprogrammers.

I estimate that most public and private mental health services within Australia have now been infiltrated by perpetrators.  It only takes one pedophile to infiltrate an organisation, for the perpetrator’s will to be exacted against a victim.  The more effective perpetrators are well groomed females whose subtle approach reflects their motto: ‘You catch more flies with honey than vinegar.’

I don’t agree with the notion that victims of abuse should never work with victims of abuse.  Often, abuse survivors are the most understanding of all.  That said, another dangerous therapist is one who is herself a child abuse victim, is in denial of this, has not processed and integrated her experiences, she is triggered by her client’s material – but she refuses to examine her own issues because of the mental pain this causes her.  This type of therapist will knowingly betray their client,  even contradict their own written reports to falsely label the client psychotic – in preference to facing their own abuse issues.  Unfortunately, the Australian mental health industry is choking with these types.

Victims of organised pedophilia should also beware of peripheral health care providers including nurses, dentists and pharmacists.  For instance, pharmacists are a vital cog in the perpetrator wheel, since they supply the drugs necessary for the drugging of child victims.  Perhaps it’s best to be cautious of retired doctors and pharmacists who maintain their registration and ability to write drug prescriptions long after retirement from the health industry.

It is well documented that some perpetrators employ drugs, hypnosis and electric shock as abuse tools.  Therefore, if these same methods are used to treat victims, they may trigger the individual and perpetuate their abuse symptoms which may include dissociation and fear of disclosure.

On 21 November, 2011, Channel 4 in Britain showed a remarkable program called Derren Brown – The Assassin.  In the program which featured celebrity Stephen Fry, hypnotist Derren Brown demonstrated that yes, a human being can be influenced under hypnosis to do that which they would not normally do, and not recall it afterwards.  In this case, Brown successfully hypnotised a person, programmed him to fire a gun more accurately under hypnosis, instructed him to shoot Stephen Fry upon spying a visual trigger, and to completely forget the incident afterwards.

My crucial warning to victims is: do not allow anyone to use hypnosis on you – ever.  Hypnosis is suggestive.  Perpetrators disguised as therapists can use unethical hypnosis to manipulate vulnerable victims.  The use of hypnosis is particularly dangerous if the victim’s perpetrator originally employed unethical hypnosis as part of their abuse routine, because hypnosis can trigger the victim to suicide.

Similarly avoid university lecturers who invite students to participate in hypnosis studies for Psychology course credit.  Students from the University of Queensland and the University of Southern Queensland told me they were taken aside for additional private hypnosis sessions with lecturers, that they had amnesia for, and were left feeling suspicious and disturbed about, whatever happened while they were under hypnosis during those private sessions.

During my 30 year recovery attempt, I was rarely prescribed drugs.  The longest I ever took medication for was for three to six weeks.  I have a hypersensitive nervous system which, I suspect, stems in part from the amount and variety of drugs that my perpetrators pumped into my system from a very young age.  My sensitivity precludes me from taking certain drugs, and I can only handle small doses.

A friend is a retired pharmacist.  He once gave me some advice that I will share: ‘Never take the newer drugs.  You’d be lucky if a new drug has been tested on 10,000 subjects – making you a human guinea pig.  Stick to the old and tried drugs.’  I particularly urge victims to avoid the drug Cymbalta.  It is reportedly making abuse victims suicidal, and withdrawal from it induces such bad side effects (such as heart problems) that people cannot withdraw from it.  Some of the newer antidepressants have reportedly caused hallucinogenic type reactions.

Valium is reportedly effective for immediate relief from fresh trauma and flashbacks – but it is too addictive for long-term usage.  The older style beta-blockers (e.g., Inderal) are seemingly effective for PTSD.  For example, the heart has been shown to possess its own ‘memory cells’.  It makes sense then that therapeutic processing of memories can trigger an adverse heart response.  The old beta-blockers may provide relief from the heart’s constant reaction to the stress of reliving traumatic memories during therapy and providing witness testimony to police and courts.  While certain research studies suggest the old beta blockers are effective for trauma memory restructuring, I wonder whether their mechanism of action interferes with brain integration.

Victims should be informed and prepared for the incomparable physical pain that may be experienced during effective therapeutic treatment.  I doubt any prescription drug can soothe an inflamed nervous system during flashbacks in which the victim relives the physical pain of torture.  Potent alternative herbal medicines have been known to settle such pain within an hour.  Cutting out all caffeine and fructose could only benefit the victim’s nervous system too.

Typically, every aspect of the victim’s personality manifests to test the therapist, to determine whether she is intelligent, ethical, caring, humble and spiritual enough to see the process through to its conclusion.  After the therapeutic relationship is established, the victim needs to test the therapist at regular intervals, to check that she is committed enough for the victim to safely continue to the next level.  The victim might challenge the therapist on every aspect of her existence: her spiritual beliefs, life choices, cognitive ability, psychology skills, training, business management decisions, family situation, research, associates, loyalties, ethics and physical health.  This explains why victims of the most severe child abuse typically present as nightmare clients.  But their demands are in fact purpose driven, and they dissipate with healing.

The therapist testing phase is essential because once the vortex to the victim’s past is ripped open, the victim boards a roller coaster ride they cannot possible disembark – until one of three outcomes occurs: (1) the victim endures until the end of the ride and heals, (2) the perpetrators recapture the victim and re-abuse them, or (3) the victim jumps.  It is imperative the therapist makes a commitment to endure the entire journey – before it begins.  Pulling out half way can kill a client.

The bond between therapist and victim at the VIP child trafficking level is unique.  This stems from the attachment violation perpetrated against the victim at a young age.  Typically, the victim’s natural attachment to their mother is purposely and cruelly severed, and the victim is artificially attached to their primary perpetrator.  If the primary perpetrator was a psychologist or psychiatrist, this makes for a complicated therapeutic dynamic.  VIP victims are usually additionally bonded to a surrogate mother within the crime syndicate who also serves as mentor and confidant.

Bonding with a therapist is essential for relaxation and the consequential memory processing and brain integration.  Once bonding has occurred, and the victim completely trusts the therapist with her life, the victim automatically transfers her feelings for her perpetrators onto the therapist.  The upside to this situation is, the therapist is granted unprecedented access to the victims’ psyche.  The victim will respond to the therapist’s voice and instruction like a robot.  Such passivity enables the victim to be pacified amidst flashbacks and trauma responses by the mere sound of the therapist’s voice.

The downside to this bonding process is that the victim becomes dependent on the therapist for as long as the portal to their past remains open.  At each trauma, bout of excruciating flashback of pain, fear or terror, the victim looks for the therapist’s voice – like when a screaming baby settles upon hearing her mother’s tone.  If that voice does not come, the victim’s pain and panic escalates.  Like in a mother-child relationship, the victim is pacified just knowing that the therapist is contactable.  Much internal chaos can be avoided if the therapist is merely available.  Securing a sense of availability reduces the number of times the victim needs to actually contact the therapist.

If the therapist is largely physically or emotionally unavailable, and the victim is forced to constantly demand, beg or work for every minute of productive therapy they receive, then this will exacerbate the victim’s feelings of frustration, anger, exhaustion, and the sense that they’re losing their mind.

Owing to my extensive experience of therapy both as a client and a practitioner, I know how people’s brains typically respond to therapy, how trauma memories behave, and how effective therapy should feel.  Based on my experience, I support the use of non-suggestive integration techniques including art, swimming, writing, and EMDR.

There seems to be mixed opinions concerning the therapeutic effectiveness of EMDR in Australia.  For example, ACT Victim Services approve the use of EMDR by their counsellors, while NSW Victim Services do not.  When I first heard about EMDR, I dismissed it as a hypnosis offshoot.  I was wrong.  Unlike hypnosis, EMDR is non-suggestive.  This means it cannot be used to accuse the therapist of ‘implanting false memories.’  Internally, the process of art therapy and EMDR feels remarkably similar.  EMDR allows the victim’s mind to process trauma material at a manageable pace and intensity.  During EMDR, the therapist simply taps the victims hands, or waves her hand across the victim’s eyes several times, and then sits back and waits for the victim to express whatever comes to mind.  I find that EMDR and art therapy complement each other and are best used in conjunction.

Between therapy sessions, bilateral activities like swimming and journal typing encourage cognitive processing and integration.  Writing permits the victim to debrief from the content of trauma therapy sessions, to process their cognitive material.  Some victims can’t cover everything that occurred during the past week, within a weekly session.  It causes a sense of overload and confusion.  Typing a journal about the therapy process can help relieve the emotional pain and continue the therapy process in between sessions.

Effective therapy can trigger flashbacks, nightmares and thought flooding.  Therapy forces the victim to mentally and physically reconnect with the pain of their child abuse.  In some cases, the recovery process requires the victim to relive the entire physical experience – but in reverse.  If perpetrators used such abuse techniques as torture, spinning, drugs, unethical hypnosis and electric shock, the recovery process may be as equally painful as the original abuse, and it may trigger severe vertigo, nausea and an adverse heart reaction.

I once heard a leading neurologist hypothesise on radio that psychological pain registers in the brain as physical pain.  I reached that conclusion decades prior to hearing that interview.  Memory processing can be a violent experience that commences with vertigo and ends with mild brain damage including memory loss and extreme light sensitivity.  It can take such a physical toll that the victim requires physical nursing – which is non-existent in Australia.

The victim’s pain may be compared to having one’s physical body smashed up in a car accident and being left without anesthetic for years.  The most painful episodes are pain flashbacks that can last for days.  I endured two drug-free births which my midwife described as the most painful she had witnessed in 30 years of experience.  The pain flashback experienced due to therapy felt just as severe, if not worse.

The most critical times during the therapy process occurs when the victim is triggered to suicide.  Outside of the vortex being opened, and the victim being triggered, they are not a suicide risk and typically wouldn’t contemplate the notion of harming themselves.  However, VIP child abuse is layered with suicide triggers.

When in acute nervous system pain, a victim cannot be reasoned with.  They do not want to engage in superficial discussion.  They just wanted pain relief.  Reasoning with the victim is like trying to engage in small talk with someone who has sustained a severe injury in a car accident, and who is lying on the tarmac writhing and screaming in agony.  The problem with nervous system pain is that others can’t see it, and therefore they are likely to dismiss its severity and ignore how futile it is to discuss the weather with someone in that condition.

When a victim first starts focusing on a childhood abuse incident, they may be inundated with flashbacks, thought or memory flooding, severe nervous system pain, erratic heart behaviour, and suicidal ideation.  As soon as the memory is processed via EMDR and art, and the feelings are abreacted, the symptoms dissipated and the victim is never again bothered by that memory.  If the memory is not immediately processed in therapy, the victim’s symptoms exacerbate and they become increasingly at risk.

During the most crucial recovery stages, the victim ideally needs a small group of friends to support them full time.  These people need to be willing and able to be on call at any time of the day or night, nurse the victim, cook meals, and take suicide shifts.  Correctly managed, the recovery process becomes finite and possible instead of a 30-year marathon.

Churches are logically the first port of call for many needy victims, considering the sense of community they profess to offer.  However, in my 30 years’ experience of ‘churchianity’ I have yet to meet a professing Australian Christian who is willing and able to support victims of the level of abuse I experienced.  Australian Christians are the laziest pew-warmers you’ll find anywhere on the planet.  They would rather drink their Gloria Jean caramel lattes than put themselves out for the needy.  I blame the churches first for the epidemic of child abuse in this country.

As the Royal Commission proves, Australian churches were long ago infiltrated by pedophiles.  I have yet to encounter a genuine Australian church organisation’s ‘counselling team’ that is actually helpful.  ‘Forget the past and get on with life!’ is the message ‘churchianity’ gave me.  Yet one can’t stick a bandage over an infected wound.  This will only cause the infection to fester and spread.  First the infection must be drawn to the surface, then the pus must be cleansed out.  Only then can the wound be dressed for healing.

Authentic effective care is demonstrated by action, not words.  Words are empty and easy to utter,  But action costs.  The type of caring necessary for survival and recovery is altruistic and self- sacrificing.  It must be freely given at no financial gain.  Victims should not be forced to pay double for the crimes committed against them.

In conclusion, therapy is an artificial and unhealthy relationship for victims of ritual abuse and mind control.  The therapeutic relationship preys upon a person’s natural desire for social interaction.  It mimics the recognition, friendship and affection that victims, isolated by their unique thinking and experiences, crave.

I strongly suggest victims avoid entering the Australian health care system.  Once you do, therapists are legally bound to keep case notes on you, and are mandated to report you to the authorities for a variety of reasons.  Once you are medically diagnosed and labelled, your medical history can be used against you at any time in the future.  Your history can legally be used as grounds to: expel you from work or study, deny you income insurance, remove your children and place them with perpetrators, cancel your professional and leisure activity registration, arrest you, imprison you, dismiss your witness testimony, rule against you in any legal matter, or force you into a psychiatric facility where you risk being subjected to a repeat of your childhood abuse.

If you must engage a therapist, do so under a pseudonym and pay cash upfront.  Do not allow your details to be entered into any computerised system.  Do not risk a member of the pedophile ring, who has been watching out for a client like you to attend their organisation, accessing your details.  Remember, therapists often operate within clinical teams, attend supervision themselves, or debrief with peers, friends or relatives.  In this way, therapists may unwittingly disclose your identity and whereabouts to your perpetrators.

I believe that one day all Australians will be held accountable for how they respond to indicators of organised pedophilia and to victims’ anguish.  In my greatest moment of need – no one was willing to put themselves out for me.  How much more difficult my journey was made by those who possessed the ability to help but couldn’t be bothered, were too frightened, or too busy performing meaningless self-serving tasks that fail to advance the human condition.

When you refuse to act for one, you effectively turn your back on all.

Surviving organised pedophilia in Australia is made impossible not so much by the perpetrators’ ability to cloak their activities, but more so by peoples’ lack of altruistic caring.  That is why so many of my contemporary victims are dead.  That is why I am the first Australian victim to publish what I experienced at the hands of Australia’s VIP child abuse network.

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